Introductions

    It's my first Blog post on my first Blog!!! This post is to introduce myself to all you people out there in reader land (if anyone ever reads this).  My name is Nikki and I am a 26 year old Wife and Mom and 911 Dispatcher.
     Mom, Wife, 911 Dispatcher.... I am all these things and I am passionate about each title because I have earned each one. Fat, Morbidly Obese, Overweight.... These are titles placed upon me that I am not proud of and that I am ashamed of.  But if there is one thing I've learned during a life of being the big girl, shame gets us nowhere.  I am embarking on a new chapter in my life, one I've failed time and time again. I am still trying to figure out exactly what will make this time different from every other time, but I'm determined to keep trying.
     As you may guess, being a Dispatcher is an extremely stressful career. I work 6 days straight every week. 8 hour shifts with no breaks, and little ability to get up and move out of my chair.  I can have a peaceful night at work where I am literally board out of my mind and doodling on my note pad and in the blink of an eye my stress level will shoot through the roof due to a 4 car pileup, or a baby not breathing, or an armed robbery. That's the thing about my job, I go from 0-100mph in 1 second and then 2 minutes later my stress drops back down to a 0. This is when the jitters set in, because your mind can't shut itself down that quick, and your hands need something to keep them occupied...... And in walks a short fat bag of potato chips from the vending machine... Or that candy bar you put in your bag for just such an occasion..... Although I don't have specific data, I would say that about 60% of 911 Dispatchers are overweight. We literally sit for 8 hours a day at work, throw in 8 hours of sleeping, leaving you with 8 hours in the day to be active.. I spend 3 of those hours commuting, 1 hour in the shower.... And I mean who am I kidding, I sleep for at least 2 more hours leaving about 2 hours of free time spent doing exactly what I am doing right now ( laying on the couch).   Something has to change, In my 911 center alone there are 4 people who have had weight-loss surgery in the past 3 years and 2 more people scheduled to have it next year. I was literally 2 days from having Gastric Bypass when I backed out. I believe that my profession needs a health overhaul, we need more people willing to step up and get people excited to become healthy... But alas that talk is for another audience, another day.
    I am the mother of an amazing 2 year old Princess named Emme Lynn, she lights my life with her smile every day. I am also the mother of a fur baby named Chilly (Doc McStuffins, is the center of my family's daily entertainment). My Husband Ron is a huge part of my life and in a round about way he is the reason I decided to start this blog... We are challenging each other to become a healthy family and become better role models for our Daughter. I want to be able to go down the slide with her, or crawl through Ebola infested play places if that's what she wants. I want to take her sledding and build a million creepy snowmen with her, I am tired of letting my weight weigh me down. Fluffy mommy will one day be Fit mommy, and that is the day I will work towards for however long it takes.
    I will be rejoining weight watchers for the 3rd time this year..... 3rd time is a charm right? I will also be starting some sort of fitness program... Any ideas? My goal is to start a 5k program in the spring, but I need to work off some of this weight first.  Please give me feedback and ideas, I am here to document my Success and figure out along the way what works for me and what doesn't.


Love always,


Fluffy